In silence

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Silence has been generous this year. A lot of integration. A lot of reflection.

I’ve come to understand these steady gaps in time are the most nourishing. Nothing really changed on the outside. I appear to be the same as before, but I am not. A lot has loosened. Life feels spacious. I’ve found that joy is everywhere.

I sit and let the breath be enough. I used to feel that nothing was enough.I look at the rain and get lost in shades of green and blue, the palette that fills the view from my home. My mind has its own habits, built through years of surviving. I don’t fight them anymore. I don’t give much weight to the anxieties and problems that once shaped my days.

Now I’m learning to arrive closer to my center most days, letting go of what feels tight. Letting go is a physical sensation and also a decision — mind and body together. As the grip loosens, the heart and body soften, creating space for the mind to rest.

This year has been abundant and nourishing, filled with coffees and meditation, movement, and reflective writing. I spent most of my days there. I’ll take this energy into the next year, hopefully.

2026 feels more dynamic. I know it’s going to be a challenge learning how to keep what I’ve learned, to remain grounded as things move. I know this new year will ask me to face things that have been waiting in the dark. Things that will ask for courage.

Travel plans are taking shape, along with many other projects.

I am ready.

Love.Pau